Jane Austen
Emma
- Chapter 1Emma Woodhouse, handsome, clever, and rich, with a comfortable home and happy
disposition, seemed to unite some of the best blessings of existence; and had
lived nearly twenty-one years in the world with very little to distress or vex
her.
- Chapter 2Mr. Weston was a native of Highbury, and born of a respectable family, which
for the last two or three generations had been rising into gentility and
property. He had received a good education, but, on succeeding early in life to
a small independence, had become indisposed for any of the more homely pursuits
in which his brothers were engaged, and had satisfied an active, cheerful mind
and social temper by entering into the militia of his county, then embodied.
- Chapter 3Mr. Woodhouse was fond of society in his own way. He liked very much to have
his friends come and see him; and from various united causes, from his long
residence at Hartfield, and his good nature, from his fortune, his house, and
his daughter, he could command the visits of his own little circle, in a great
measure, as he liked. He had not much intercourse with any families beyond that
circle; his horror of late hours, and large dinner-parties, made him unfit for
any acquaintance but such as would visit him on his own terms. Fortunately for
him, Highbury, including Randalls in the same parish, and Donwell Abbey in the
parish adjoining, the seat of Mr. Knightley, comprehended many such. Not
unfrequently, through Emma’s persuasion, he had some of the chosen and
the best to dine with him: but evening parties were what he preferred; and,
unless he fancied himself at any time unequal to company, there was scarcely an
evening in the week in which Emma could not make up a card-table for him.
- Chapter 4Harriet Smith’s intimacy at Hartfield was soon a settled thing. Quick and
decided in her ways, Emma lost no time in inviting, encouraging, and telling
her to come very often; and as their acquaintance increased, so did their
satisfaction in each other. As a walking companion, Emma had very early
foreseen how useful she might find her. In that respect Mrs. Weston’s
loss had been important. Her father never went beyond the shrubbery, where two
divisions of the ground sufficed him for his long walk, or his short, as the
year varied; and since Mrs. Weston’s marriage her exercise had been too
much confined. She had ventured once alone to Randalls, but it was not
pleasant; and a Harriet Smith, therefore, one whom she could summon at any time
to a walk, would be a valuable addition to her privileges. But in every
respect, as she saw more of her, she approved her, and was confirmed in all her
kind designs.
- Chapter 5“I do not know what your opinion may be, Mrs. Weston,” said Mr.
Knightley, “of this great intimacy between Emma and Harriet Smith, but I
think it a bad thing.”
- Chapter 6Emma could not feel a doubt of having given Harriet’s fancy a proper
direction and raised the gratitude of her young vanity to a very good purpose,
for she found her decidedly more sensible than before of Mr. Elton’s
being a remarkably handsome man, with most agreeable manners; and as she had no
hesitation in following up the assurance of his admiration by agreeable hints,
she was soon pretty confident of creating as much liking on Harriet’s
side, as there could be any occasion for. She was quite convinced of Mr.
Elton’s being in the fairest way of falling in love, if not in love
already. She had no scruple with regard to him. He talked of Harriet, and
praised her so warmly, that she could not suppose any thing wanting which a
little time would not add. His perception of the striking improvement of
Harriet’s manner, since her introduction at Hartfield, was not one of the
least agreeable proofs of his growing attachment.
- Chapter 7The very day of Mr. Elton’s going to London produced a fresh occasion for
Emma’s services towards her friend. Harriet had been at Hartfield, as
usual, soon after breakfast; and, after a time, had gone home to return again
to dinner: she returned, and sooner than had been talked of, and with an
agitated, hurried look, announcing something extraordinary to have happened
which she was longing to tell. Half a minute brought it all out. She had heard,
as soon as she got back to Mrs. Goddard’s, that Mr. Martin had been there
an hour before, and finding she was not at home, nor particularly expected, had
left a little parcel for her from one of his sisters, and gone away; and on
opening this parcel, she had actually found, besides the two songs which she
had lent Elizabeth to copy, a letter to herself; and this letter was from him,
from Mr. Martin, and contained a direct proposal of marriage. “Who could
have thought it? She was so surprized she did not know what to do. Yes, quite a
proposal of marriage; and a very good letter, at least she thought so. And he
wrote as if he really loved her very much—but she did not know—and
so, she was come as fast as she could to ask Miss Woodhouse what she should
do.—” Emma was half-ashamed of her friend for seeming so pleased
and so doubtful.
- Chapter 8Harriet slept at Hartfield that night. For some weeks past she had been
spending more than half her time there, and gradually getting to have a
bed-room appropriated to herself; and Emma judged it best in every respect,
safest and kindest, to keep her with them as much as possible just at present.
She was obliged to go the next morning for an hour or two to Mrs.
Goddard’s, but it was then to be settled that she should return to
Hartfield, to make a regular visit of some days.
- Chapter 9Mr. Knightley might quarrel with her, but Emma could not quarrel with herself.
He was so much displeased, that it was longer than usual before he came to
Hartfield again; and when they did meet, his grave looks shewed that she was
not forgiven. She was sorry, but could not repent. On the contrary, her plans
and proceedings were more and more justified and endeared to her by the general
appearances of the next few days.
- Chapter 10Though now the middle of December, there had yet been no weather to prevent the
young ladies from tolerably regular exercise; and on the morrow, Emma had a
charitable visit to pay to a poor sick family, who lived a little way out of
Highbury.
- Chapter 11Mr. Elton must now be left to himself. It was no longer in Emma’s power
to superintend his happiness or quicken his measures. The coming of her
sister’s family was so very near at hand, that first in anticipation, and
then in reality, it became henceforth her prime object of interest; and during
the ten days of their stay at Hartfield it was not to be expected—she did
not herself expect—that any thing beyond occasional, fortuitous
assistance could be afforded by her to the lovers. They might advance rapidly
if they would, however; they must advance somehow or other whether they would
or no. She hardly wished to have more leisure for them. There are people, who
the more you do for them, the less they will do for themselves.
- Chapter 12Mr. Knightley was to dine with them—rather against the inclination of Mr.
Woodhouse, who did not like that any one should share with him in
Isabella’s first day. Emma’s sense of right however had decided it;
and besides the consideration of what was due to each brother, she had
particular pleasure, from the circumstance of the late disagreement between Mr.
Knightley and herself, in procuring him the proper invitation.
- Chapter 13There could hardly be a happier creature in the world than Mrs. John Knightley,
in this short visit to Hartfield, going about every morning among her old
acquaintance with her five children, and talking over what she had done every
evening with her father and sister. She had nothing to wish otherwise, but that
the days did not pass so swiftly. It was a delightful visit;—perfect, in
being much too short.
- Chapter 14Some change of countenance was necessary for each gentleman as they walked into
Mrs. Weston’s drawing-room;—Mr. Elton must compose his joyous
looks, and Mr. John Knightley disperse his ill-humour. Mr. Elton must smile
less, and Mr. John Knightley more, to fit them for the place.—Emma only
might be as nature prompted, and shew herself just as happy as she was. To her
it was real enjoyment to be with the Westons. Mr. Weston was a great favourite,
and there was not a creature in the world to whom she spoke with such
unreserve, as to his wife; not any one, to whom she related with such
conviction of being listened to and understood, of being always interesting and
always intelligible, the little affairs, arrangements, perplexities, and
pleasures of her father and herself. She could tell nothing of Hartfield, in
which Mrs. Weston had not a lively concern; and half an hour’s
uninterrupted communication of all those little matters on which the daily
happiness of private life depends, was one of the first gratifications of each.
- Chapter 15Mr. Woodhouse was soon ready for his tea; and when he had drank his tea he was
quite ready to go home; and it was as much as his three companions could do, to
entertain away his notice of the lateness of the hour, before the other
gentlemen appeared. Mr. Weston was chatty and convivial, and no friend to early
separations of any sort; but at last the drawing-room party did receive an
augmentation. Mr. Elton, in very good spirits, was one of the first to walk in.
Mrs. Weston and Emma were sitting together on a sofa. He joined them
immediately, and, with scarcely an invitation, seated himself between them.
- Chapter 16The hair was curled, and the maid sent away, and Emma sat down to think and be
miserable.—It was a wretched business indeed!—Such an overthrow of
every thing she had been wishing for!—Such a development of every thing
most unwelcome!—Such a blow for Harriet!—that was the worst of all.
Every part of it brought pain and humiliation, of some sort or other; but,
compared with the evil to Harriet, all was light; and she would gladly have
submitted to feel yet more mistaken—more in error—more disgraced by
mis-judgment, than she actually was, could the effects of her blunders have
been confined to herself.
- Chapter 17Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley were not detained long at Hartfield. The weather
soon improved enough for those to move who must move; and Mr. Woodhouse having,
as usual, tried to persuade his daughter to stay behind with all her children,
was obliged to see the whole party set off, and return to his lamentations over
the destiny of poor Isabella;—which poor Isabella, passing her life with
those she doated on, full of their merits, blind to their faults, and always
innocently busy, might have been a model of right feminine happiness.
- Chapter 18Mr. Frank Churchill did not come. When the time proposed drew near, Mrs.
Weston’s fears were justified in the arrival of a letter of excuse. For
the present, he could not be spared, to his “very great mortification and
regret; but still he looked forward with the hope of coming to Randalls at no
distant period.”
- Chapter 19Emma and Harriet had been walking together one morning, and, in Emma’s
opinion, had been talking enough of Mr. Elton for that day. She could not think
that Harriet’s solace or her own sins required more; and she was
therefore industriously getting rid of the subject as they returned;—but
it burst out again when she thought she had succeeded, and after speaking some
time of what the poor must suffer in winter, and receiving no other answer than
a very plaintive—“Mr. Elton is so good to the poor!” she
found something else must be done.
- Chapter 20Jane Fairfax was an orphan, the only child of Mrs. Bates’s youngest
daughter.
- Chapter 21Emma could not forgive her;—but as neither provocation nor resentment
were discerned by Mr. Knightley, who had been of the party, and had seen only
proper attention and pleasing behaviour on each side, he was expressing the
next morning, being at Hartfield again on business with Mr. Woodhouse, his
approbation of the whole; not so openly as he might have done had her father
been out of the room, but speaking plain enough to be very intelligible to
Emma. He had been used to think her unjust to Jane, and had now great pleasure
in marking an improvement.
- Chapter 22Human nature is so well disposed towards those who are in interesting
situations, that a young person, who either marries or dies, is sure of being
kindly spoken of.
- Chapter 23Small heart had Harriet for visiting. Only half an hour before her friend
called for her at Mrs. Goddard’s, her evil stars had led her to the very
spot where, at that moment, a trunk, directed to The Rev. Philip Elton,
White-Hart, Bath, was to be seen under the operation of being lifted into
the butcher’s cart, which was to convey it to where the coaches past; and
every thing in this world, excepting that trunk and the direction, was
consequently a blank.
- Chapter 24The next morning brought Mr. Frank Churchill again. He came with Mrs. Weston,
to whom and to Highbury he seemed to take very cordially. He had been sitting
with her, it appeared, most companionably at home, till her usual hour of
exercise; and on being desired to chuse their walk, immediately fixed on
Highbury.—“He did not doubt there being very pleasant walks in
every direction, but if left to him, he should always chuse the same. Highbury,
that airy, cheerful, happy-looking Highbury, would be his constant
attraction.”—Highbury, with Mrs. Weston, stood for Hartfield; and
she trusted to its bearing the same construction with him. They walked thither
directly.
- Chapter 25Emma’s very good opinion of Frank Churchill was a little shaken the
following day, by hearing that he was gone off to London, merely to have his
hair cut. A sudden freak seemed to have seized him at breakfast, and he had
sent for a chaise and set off, intending to return to dinner, but with no more
important view that appeared than having his hair cut. There was certainly no
harm in his travelling sixteen miles twice over on such an errand; but there
was an air of foppery and nonsense in it which she could not approve. It did
not accord with the rationality of plan, the moderation in expense, or even the
unselfish warmth of heart, which she had believed herself to discern in him
yesterday. Vanity, extravagance, love of change, restlessness of temper, which
must be doing something, good or bad; heedlessness as to the pleasure of his
father and Mrs. Weston, indifferent as to how his conduct might appear in
general; he became liable to all these charges. His father only called him a
coxcomb, and thought it a very good story; but that Mrs. Weston did not like
it, was clear enough, by her passing it over as quickly as possible, and making
no other comment than that “all young people would have their little
whims.”
- Chapter 26Frank Churchill came back again; and if he kept his father’s dinner
waiting, it was not known at Hartfield; for Mrs. Weston was too anxious for his
being a favourite with Mr. Woodhouse, to betray any imperfection which could be
concealed.
- Chapter 27Emma did not repent her condescension in going to the Coles. The visit afforded
her many pleasant recollections the next day; and all that she might be
supposed to have lost on the side of dignified seclusion, must be amply repaid
in the splendour of popularity. She must have delighted the Coles—worthy
people, who deserved to be made happy!—And left a name behind her that
would not soon die away.
- Chapter 28The appearance of the little sitting-room as they entered, was tranquillity
itself; Mrs. Bates, deprived of her usual employment, slumbering on one side of
the fire, Frank Churchill, at a table near her, most deedily occupied about her
spectacles, and Jane Fairfax, standing with her back to them, intent on her
pianoforte.
- Chapter 29It may be possible to do without dancing entirely. Instances have been known of
young people passing many, many months successively, without being at any ball
of any description, and no material injury accrue either to body or
mind;—but when a beginning is made—when the felicities of rapid
motion have once been, though slightly, felt—it must be a very heavy set
that does not ask for more.
- Chapter 30One thing only was wanting to make the prospect of the ball completely
satisfactory to Emma—its being fixed for a day within the granted term of
Frank Churchill’s stay in Surry; for, in spite of Mr. Weston’s
confidence, she could not think it so very impossible that the Churchills might
not allow their nephew to remain a day beyond his fortnight. But this was not
judged feasible. The preparations must take their time, nothing could be
properly ready till the third week were entered on, and for a few days they
must be planning, proceeding and hoping in uncertainty—at the
risk—in her opinion, the great risk, of its being all in vain.
- Chapter 31Emma continued to entertain no doubt of her being in love. Her ideas only
varied as to the how much. At first, she thought it was a good deal; and
afterwards, but little. She had great pleasure in hearing Frank Churchill
talked of; and, for his sake, greater pleasure than ever in seeing Mr. and Mrs.
Weston; she was very often thinking of him, and quite impatient for a letter,
that she might know how he was, how were his spirits, how was his aunt, and
what was the chance of his coming to Randalls again this spring. But, on the
other hand, she could not admit herself to be unhappy, nor, after the first
morning, to be less disposed for employment than usual; she was still busy and
cheerful; and, pleasing as he was, she could yet imagine him to have faults;
and farther, though thinking of him so much, and, as she sat drawing or
working, forming a thousand amusing schemes for the progress and close of their
attachment, fancying interesting dialogues, and inventing elegant letters; the
conclusion of every imaginary declaration on his side was that she
refused him. Their affection was always to subside into
friendship. Every thing tender and charming was to mark their parting; but
still they were to part. When she became sensible of this, it struck her that
she could not be very much in love; for in spite of her previous and fixed
determination never to quit her father, never to marry, a strong attachment
certainly must produce more of a struggle than she could foresee in her own
feelings.
- Chapter 32Mrs. Elton was first seen at church: but though devotion might be interrupted,
curiosity could not be satisfied by a bride in a pew, and it must be left for
the visits in form which were then to be paid, to settle whether she were very
pretty indeed, or only rather pretty, or not pretty at all.
- Chapter 33Emma was not required, by any subsequent discovery, to retract her ill opinion
of Mrs. Elton. Her observation had been pretty correct. Such as Mrs. Elton
appeared to her on this second interview, such she appeared whenever they met
again,—self-important, presuming, familiar, ignorant, and ill-bred. She
had a little beauty and a little accomplishment, but so little judgment that
she thought herself coming with superior knowledge of the world, to enliven and
improve a country neighbourhood; and conceived Miss Hawkins to have held such a
place in society as Mrs. Elton’s consequence only could surpass.
- Chapter 34Every body in and about Highbury who had ever visited Mr. Elton, was disposed
to pay him attention on his marriage. Dinner-parties and evening-parties were
made for him and his lady; and invitations flowed in so fast that she had soon
the pleasure of apprehending they were never to have a disengaged day.
- Chapter 35When the ladies returned to the drawing-room after dinner, Emma found it hardly
possible to prevent their making two distinct parties;—with so much
perseverance in judging and behaving ill did Mrs. Elton engross Jane Fairfax
and slight herself. She and Mrs. Weston were obliged to be almost always either
talking together or silent together. Mrs. Elton left them no choice. If Jane
repressed her for a little time, she soon began again; and though much that
passed between them was in a half-whisper, especially on Mrs. Elton’s
side, there was no avoiding a knowledge of their principal subjects: The
post-office—catching cold—fetching letters—and friendship,
were long under discussion; and to them succeeded one, which must be at least
equally unpleasant to Jane—inquiries whether she had yet heard of any
situation likely to suit her, and professions of Mrs. Elton’s meditated
activity.
- Chapter 36“I hope I shall soon have the pleasure of introducing my son to
you,” said Mr. Weston.
- Chapter 37A very little quiet reflection was enough to satisfy Emma as to the nature of
her agitation on hearing this news of Frank Churchill. She was soon convinced
that it was not for herself she was feeling at all apprehensive or embarrassed;
it was for him. Her own attachment had really subsided into a mere nothing; it
was not worth thinking of;—but if he, who had undoubtedly been always so
much the most in love of the two, were to be returning with the same warmth of
sentiment which he had taken away, it would be very distressing. If a
separation of two months should not have cooled him, there were dangers and
evils before her:—caution for him and for herself would be necessary. She
did not mean to have her own affections entangled again, and it would be
incumbent on her to avoid any encouragement of his.
- Chapter 38No misfortune occurred, again to prevent the ball. The day approached, the day
arrived; and after a morning of some anxious watching, Frank Churchill, in all
the certainty of his own self, reached Randalls before dinner, and every thing
was safe.
- Chapter 39This little explanation with Mr. Knightley gave Emma considerable pleasure. It
was one of the agreeable recollections of the ball, which she walked about the
lawn the next morning to enjoy.—She was extremely glad that they had come
to so good an understanding respecting the Eltons, and that their opinions of
both husband and wife were so much alike; and his praise of Harriet, his
concession in her favour, was peculiarly gratifying. The impertinence of the
Eltons, which for a few minutes had threatened to ruin the rest of her evening,
had been the occasion of some of its highest satisfactions; and she looked
forward to another happy result—the cure of Harriet’s
infatuation.—From Harriet’s manner of speaking of the circumstance
before they quitted the ballroom, she had strong hopes. It seemed as if her
eyes were suddenly opened, and she were enabled to see that Mr. Elton was not
the superior creature she had believed him. The fever was over, and Emma could
harbour little fear of the pulse being quickened again by injurious courtesy.
She depended on the evil feelings of the Eltons for supplying all the
discipline of pointed neglect that could be farther requisite.—Harriet
rational, Frank Churchill not too much in love, and Mr. Knightley not wanting
to quarrel with her, how very happy a summer must be before her!
- Chapter 40A very few days had passed after this adventure, when Harriet came one morning
to Emma with a small parcel in her hand, and after sitting down and hesitating,
thus began:
- Chapter 41In this state of schemes, and hopes, and connivance, June opened upon
Hartfield. To Highbury in general it brought no material change. The Eltons
were still talking of a visit from the Sucklings, and of the use to be made of
their barouche-landau; and Jane Fairfax was still at her grandmother’s;
and as the return of the Campbells from Ireland was again delayed, and August,
instead of Midsummer, fixed for it, she was likely to remain there full two
months longer, provided at least she were able to defeat Mrs. Elton’s
activity in her service, and save herself from being hurried into a delightful
situation against her will.
- Chapter 42After being long fed with hopes of a speedy visit from Mr. and Mrs. Suckling,
the Highbury world were obliged to endure the mortification of hearing that
they could not possibly come till the autumn. No such importation of novelties
could enrich their intellectual stores at present. In the daily interchange of
news, they must be again restricted to the other topics with which for a while
the Sucklings’ coming had been united, such as the last accounts of Mrs.
Churchill, whose health seemed every day to supply a different report, and the
situation of Mrs. Weston, whose happiness it was to be hoped might eventually
be as much increased by the arrival of a child, as that of all her neighbours
was by the approach of it.
- Chapter 43They had a very fine day for Box Hill; and all the other outward circumstances
of arrangement, accommodation, and punctuality, were in favour of a pleasant
party. Mr. Weston directed the whole, officiating safely between Hartfield and
the Vicarage, and every body was in good time. Emma and Harriet went together;
Miss Bates and her niece, with the Eltons; the gentlemen on horseback. Mrs.
Weston remained with Mr. Woodhouse. Nothing was wanting but to be happy when
they got there. Seven miles were travelled in expectation of enjoyment, and
every body had a burst of admiration on first arriving; but in the general
amount of the day there was deficiency. There was a languor, a want of spirits,
a want of union, which could not be got over. They separated too much into
parties. The Eltons walked together; Mr. Knightley took charge of Miss Bates
and Jane; and Emma and Harriet belonged to Frank Churchill. And Mr. Weston
tried, in vain, to make them harmonise better. It seemed at first an accidental
division, but it never materially varied. Mr. and Mrs. Elton, indeed, shewed no
unwillingness to mix, and be as agreeable as they could; but during the two
whole hours that were spent on the hill, there seemed a principle of
separation, between the other parties, too strong for any fine prospects, or
any cold collation, or any cheerful Mr. Weston, to remove.
- Chapter 44The wretchedness of a scheme to Box Hill was in Emma’s thoughts all the
evening. How it might be considered by the rest of the party, she could not
tell. They, in their different homes, and their different ways, might be
looking back on it with pleasure; but in her view it was a morning more
completely misspent, more totally bare of rational satisfaction at the time,
and more to be abhorred in recollection, than any she had ever passed. A whole
evening of back-gammon with her father, was felicity to it. There,
indeed, lay real pleasure, for there she was giving up the sweetest hours of
the twenty-four to his comfort; and feeling that, unmerited as might be the
degree of his fond affection and confiding esteem, she could not, in her
general conduct, be open to any severe reproach. As a daughter, she hoped she
was not without a heart. She hoped no one could have said to her, “How
could you be so unfeeling to your father?—I must, I will tell you truths
while I can.” Miss Bates should never again—no, never! If
attention, in future, could do away the past, she might hope to be forgiven.
She had been often remiss, her conscience told her so; remiss, perhaps, more in
thought than fact; scornful, ungracious. But it should be so no more. In the
warmth of true contrition, she would call upon her the very next morning, and
it should be the beginning, on her side, of a regular, equal, kindly
intercourse.
- Chapter 45Emma’s pensive meditations, as she walked home, were not interrupted; but
on entering the parlour, she found those who must rouse her. Mr. Knightley and
Harriet had arrived during her absence, and were sitting with her
father.—Mr. Knightley immediately got up, and in a manner decidedly
graver than usual, said,
- Chapter 46One morning, about ten days after Mrs. Churchill’s decease, Emma was
called downstairs to Mr. Weston, who “could not stay five minutes, and
wanted particularly to speak with her.”—He met her at the
parlour-door, and hardly asking her how she did, in the natural key of his
voice, sunk it immediately, to say, unheard by her father,
- Chapter 47“Harriet, poor Harriet!”—Those were the words; in them lay
the tormenting ideas which Emma could not get rid of, and which constituted the
real misery of the business to her. Frank Churchill had behaved very ill by
herself—very ill in many ways,—but it was not so much his
behaviour as her own, which made her so angry with him. It was the
scrape which he had drawn her into on Harriet’s account, that gave the
deepest hue to his offence.—Poor Harriet! to be a second time the dupe of
her misconceptions and flattery. Mr. Knightley had spoken prophetically, when
he once said, “Emma, you have been no friend to Harriet
Smith.”—She was afraid she had done her nothing but
disservice.—It was true that she had not to charge herself, in this
instance as in the former, with being the sole and original author of the
mischief; with having suggested such feelings as might otherwise never have
entered Harriet’s imagination; for Harriet had acknowledged her
admiration and preference of Frank Churchill before she had ever given her a
hint on the subject; but she felt completely guilty of having encouraged what
she might have repressed. She might have prevented the indulgence and increase
of such sentiments. Her influence would have been enough. And now she was very
conscious that she ought to have prevented them.—She felt that she had
been risking her friend’s happiness on most insufficient grounds. Common
sense would have directed her to tell Harriet, that she must not allow herself
to think of him, and that there were five hundred chances to one against his
ever caring for her.—“But, with common sense,” she added,
“I am afraid I have had little to do.”
- Chapter 48Till now that she was threatened with its loss, Emma had never known how much
of her happiness depended on being first with Mr. Knightley, first in
interest and affection.—Satisfied that it was so, and feeling it her due,
she had enjoyed it without reflection; and only in the dread of being
supplanted, found how inexpressibly important it had been.—Long, very
long, she felt she had been first; for, having no female connexions of his own,
there had been only Isabella whose claims could be compared with hers, and she
had always known exactly how far he loved and esteemed Isabella. She had
herself been first with him for many years past. She had not deserved it; she
had often been negligent or perverse, slighting his advice, or even wilfully
opposing him, insensible of half his merits, and quarrelling with him because
he would not acknowledge her false and insolent estimate of her own—but
still, from family attachment and habit, and thorough excellence of mind, he
had loved her, and watched over her from a girl, with an endeavour to improve
her, and an anxiety for her doing right, which no other creature had at all
shared. In spite of all her faults, she knew she was dear to him; might she not
say, very dear?—When the suggestions of hope, however, which must follow
here, presented themselves, she could not presume to indulge them. Harriet
Smith might think herself not unworthy of being peculiarly, exclusively,
passionately loved by Mr. Knightley. She could not. She could not
flatter herself with any idea of blindness in his attachment to her. She
had received a very recent proof of its impartiality.—How shocked had he
been by her behaviour to Miss Bates! How directly, how strongly had he
expressed himself to her on the subject!—Not too strongly for the
offence—but far, far too strongly to issue from any feeling softer than
upright justice and clear-sighted goodwill.—She had no hope, nothing to
deserve the name of hope, that he could have that sort of affection for herself
which was now in question; but there was a hope (at times a slight one, at
times much stronger,) that Harriet might have deceived herself, and be
overrating his regard for her.—Wish it she must, for his
sake—be the consequence nothing to herself, but his remaining single all
his life. Could she be secure of that, indeed, of his never marrying at all,
she believed she should be perfectly satisfied.—Let him but continue the
same Mr. Knightley to her and her father, the same Mr. Knightley to all the
world; let Donwell and Hartfield lose none of their precious intercourse of
friendship and confidence, and her peace would be fully
secured.—Marriage, in fact, would not do for her. It would be
incompatible with what she owed to her father, and with what she felt for him.
Nothing should separate her from her father. She would not marry, even if she
were asked by Mr. Knightley.
- Chapter 49The weather continued much the same all the following morning; and the same
loneliness, and the same melancholy, seemed to reign at Hartfield—but in
the afternoon it cleared; the wind changed into a softer quarter; the clouds
were carried off; the sun appeared; it was summer again. With all the eagerness
which such a transition gives, Emma resolved to be out of doors as soon as
possible. Never had the exquisite sight, smell, sensation of nature, tranquil,
warm, and brilliant after a storm, been more attractive to her. She longed for
the serenity they might gradually introduce; and on Mr. Perry’s coming in
soon after dinner, with a disengaged hour to give her father, she lost no time
in hurrying into the shrubbery.—There, with spirits freshened, and
thoughts a little relieved, she had taken a few turns, when she saw Mr.
Knightley passing through the garden door, and coming towards her.—It was
the first intimation of his being returned from London. She had been thinking
of him the moment before, as unquestionably sixteen miles distant.—There
was time only for the quickest arrangement of mind. She must be collected and
calm. In half a minute they were together. The “How d’ye
do’s” were quiet and constrained on each side. She asked after
their mutual friends; they were all well.—When had he left
them?—Only that morning. He must have had a wet ride.—Yes.—He
meant to walk with her, she found. “He had just looked into the
dining-room, and as he was not wanted there, preferred being out of
doors.”—She thought he neither looked nor spoke cheerfully; and the
first possible cause for it, suggested by her fears, was, that he had perhaps
been communicating his plans to his brother, and was pained by the manner in
which they had been received.
- Chapter 50What totally different feelings did Emma take back into the house from what she
had brought out!—she had then been only daring to hope for a little
respite of suffering;—she was now in an exquisite flutter of happiness,
and such happiness moreover as she believed must still be greater when the
flutter should have passed away.
- Chapter 51This letter must make its way to Emma’s feelings. She was obliged, in
spite of her previous determination to the contrary, to do it all the justice
that Mrs. Weston foretold. As soon as she came to her own name, it was
irresistible; every line relating to herself was interesting, and almost every
line agreeable; and when this charm ceased, the subject could still maintain
itself, by the natural return of her former regard for the writer, and the very
strong attraction which any picture of love must have for her at that moment.
She never stopt till she had gone through the whole; and though it was
impossible not to feel that he had been wrong, yet he had been less wrong than
she had supposed—and he had suffered, and was very sorry—and he was
so grateful to Mrs. Weston, and so much in love with Miss Fairfax, and she was
so happy herself, that there was no being severe; and could he have entered the
room, she must have shaken hands with him as heartily as ever.
- Chapter 52It was a very great relief to Emma to find Harriet as desirous as herself to
avoid a meeting. Their intercourse was painful enough by letter. How much
worse, had they been obliged to meet!
- Chapter 53Mrs. Weston’s friends were all made happy by her safety; and if the
satisfaction of her well-doing could be increased to Emma, it was by knowing
her to be the mother of a little girl. She had been decided in wishing for a
Miss Weston. She would not acknowledge that it was with any view of making a
match for her, hereafter, with either of Isabella’s sons; but she was
convinced that a daughter would suit both father and mother best. It would be a
great comfort to Mr. Weston, as he grew older—and even Mr. Weston might
be growing older ten years hence—to have his fireside enlivened by the
sports and the nonsense, the freaks and the fancies of a child never banished
from home; and Mrs. Weston—no one could doubt that a daughter would be
most to her; and it would be quite a pity that any one who so well knew how to
teach, should not have their powers in exercise again.
- Chapter 54Time passed on. A few more to-morrows, and the party from London would be
arriving. It was an alarming change; and Emma was thinking of it one morning,
as what must bring a great deal to agitate and grieve her, when Mr. Knightley
came in, and distressing thoughts were put by. After the first chat of pleasure
he was silent; and then, in a graver tone, began with,
- Chapter 55If Emma had still, at intervals, an anxious feeling for Harriet, a momentary
doubt of its being possible for her to be really cured of her attachment to Mr.
Knightley, and really able to accept another man from unbiased inclination, it
was not long that she had to suffer from the recurrence of any such
uncertainty. A very few days brought the party from London, and she had no
sooner an opportunity of being one hour alone with Harriet, than she became
perfectly satisfied—unaccountable as it was!—that Robert Martin had
thoroughly supplanted Mr. Knightley, and was now forming all her views of
happiness.